Desiderata

Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should. 

Because today you're brillant, bold and beautiful.
And so today, I shall appreciate you.
The day is good, the night is peaceful.
And so I shall thank you.

I apologise for all the times I forgot,
For my undertakings and regret.
For all the wrong I've done,
I pour my heart out to you.

I love you,
you're great with no pinch of doubt.
I thank you for loving me, every second, every day,
even when I clothed shyness, ugliness and distaste.

I make a pact to love, cherish, adore and sing praises to you.
Not today, not tomorrow but for the rest of my life.
And so, it begins today.

A new beginning, where options lie.
But its you and me and everyone else.
We all need something to believe in.
Somewhere, somehow.

Someone.



Love,
D.

Monday blues

And my memory card has failed me..yet again.
Now I have to pray that some shop at simlim will retrieve it all for me. If not, I would've to cope with the lost of losing memorable photos yet again. I really really hate this. I am getting a more reliable memory card reader. The 20 bucks I spent on my supposedly "universal card reader" has contributed to the loss of hundreds of photos which has left me depressed at 8.20am.

The reminder of it all being gone honestly kills me.
I shall take a drive and get breakfast. I need it.

God, please let my files be retrievable cause I'm sure Sean can't redo his entire parade and his family photos are in there. Thank you.

On a totally different note, I think I'm in love. With conservation houses. 

I can't wait for my Horrible histories download to be done. In the meanwhile, I'll finish up 1983's Scarface.

Also, today marks the first year since I got my license. I'm old. No really.

Love,
Denise

Goodnight, sleep well.

*Sean and I were listening to this song in the car the other day and it was funny, we couldn't help but look at each other and we tightened the grip around our interlocked fingers. Its so brillant. Many things pass you by. You barely make it sometimes but there are miracles happening everyday, we're just too focused on everything else.

I felt like doing a little update on how everything's been for me.

I'm in the midsts of making preparations to leave in the mid of next month in time for the beginning of my third year. I know I was complaining at how miserable my life was at the beginning of the '11. It was haha, no kidding there. Everything felt like it was spiraling down and to be honest, I felt down most of the time. Everyone was probably having a hard time too cause no one was cutting me any slack in any way and again I was reminded that everyone wasn't who they seemed to be. The beginning of the semester felt like forever cause Curtin Singapore wasn't helping me very much on their end and many things got held back. One including taking a unit I was already exempted from.

The disappointment from a lot of it was piling stress like undone essay homework. I wished I could just hurry deal with it and pray for it to vanish in the next 3 seconds. My parents aren't really around very often so I'm left to handle with practically all of it on my own and sometimes I fee lthe responsibility is too much to bear. Things did simmer down after I moved out of several zones and sat my ass right back to where I was orginally from. School started getting better, life was picking up and well today, I'm happy. With where I am. With Sean, shifting myself around doing my best to try and comprehend what life is all about. I've lost some friends in the process, a potential boyfriend (thank god) and somewhat a good friend.

I'm not upset about either. Reason being is not because I'm oblivious but I believe that everyone has their own set of interests. No two people are the same. I can like your boots and hate your accessories or love you but dump shit on your boyfriend. I've given up on even refering back to superficial 'backstabbing/my life is a social climb therefore it is only imperative that I have more friends than you thus, I must also know who your friends are'. I like who my friends are and friends are not a competition. I don't care if you have more friends or if your friends are pricks. Really. I also believe that being someone friend doesn't even you the right to probe. Please don't be a roommate (with ref to Leighton meester's film). When I was younger, my friends were my prized possessions and I'd do my best so I could always keep them. They still are but you gotta know when you let them go.

With Sean, we've been fine. Fights here and there, the usual. We're trying our bestest like how we used to. I guess sometimes relationships can be so fun because you let yourself be. And no matter what anyone says, I'm happy with Sean. I like the familiarity, the love, the smiles, everything.

There's always a limit to everything and we will cross boundaries in areas at different times of our lives. Nothing's written in stone. They say you write destiny yourself. I think destiny is an amazing thing. Its the pen you use to inscribe your musings, a valuable ally. Use, live, eat and love well and you'll do fine. I'm not sure how old majority of my readers are but I hope you guys take a little something from reading my posts. Its great to see how people have progressed. From lolxzx to lawl and just regularly lol now I believe I've grown up in maybe a hundred ways, a thousand different thoughts and a couple of tangled heartstrings. Its good to be 19 coming 20 and not 14.

You appreciate cut, clarity, carat, color. 
Now that's diamond talk.

Have a good week kittens.
Love,
D.

Compilations

Here's an edit. I didn't get the chance to publish this post on Friday so the photos are a compilation of my weekend and other photos.

I don't really say this but. THANK THE HEAVENS ITS FRIDAY! (or you could say TGIF) I have at least 5 days till my next paper which means, I get to enjoy my weekends! You have no idea how deprived of fun I am. Its funny how everytime i'm up to my head drowning in work everyone's our partying, going on holidays while I sit stagnant, butt practically glued to my seat as my eyes slowly detoriate and astigmatism drastically increases.

9.02am, i'm all dressed up to head out. But not until I read one lecture of my notes so at least I know my exam principles are still in check.

I've got my entire Saturday planned out! YES by LMFAO would be great. Instead, i've got another song attached with this entry. Have a listen and a couple of song recommendations at the end. Its been playing continuously on my playlist for the past few days. Catchy, love it! On a sidenote, I've always wondered why my bb was so laggy and its the result of 636 pictures, well on its way to be on par with my iphone at 1000ish. So you must be wondering, "What kind of pictures she have in her phone sia? I bet confirm camwhore pictures one. Like all angles lor, like the ahlians." Here's a sneak peak!

*This post is image heavy, click at your own risk.

Grumble

Photobucket has been a bitch since last Friday, my post is still undone, I have a law test tomorrow before freedom is finally mine, I'm terribly tired and I have to lose some weight. My fat fest has gone too far.

I shall stop being grumpy and head to bed. Right after I finish reading up on Racial discrimination. Will do my utmost best to get Friday's post up!

Have a great week guys!

Yours exhaustedly,
D.

Another week ends

I keep on running keep on running but nothing works, i cant get away from you

For those who have missed my face, here you go. Yes, you don't have to begin to tell me how crappy i look. That's the result lesser photos of myself on this e domain. Well i'm up at 6.53am studying at the dining table for my upcoming papers next week. The sky's a mild grey, the birds already chirping. Been so buried under my work I'm cite that the weekends are here! Zouk on Wednesday was fun, a mini relief from the pressure does wonders. Kid cudi's been playing on and on for awhile now. A little more on culture and i'm off to bed!

I'm feeling positive. Are you?

Have a great weekend guys.
Got my horoscope for the month of June, it says I should make-patch up things with a friend who I've felt betrayed me. I'll think about that.

xoxo
D

Manners, what?

People say I sound awfully sad in most of my post, I assure you im fine. My blog has become a place where I vent my frustrations. I do feel happy most of the time, its just too much and sort of too trivial to jot down in bullet points here.

Semester 1 is coming to an end and i've been home for almost 3 days cramming my head with PR principles and strategies what not. My eyes are really starting to get the best of me, they tire out so easily and I am dying. Just Dying To Go Out. The progress has been good however. The whole sem was alright for me, met tons of new people but getting the administraition work done was a complete pain the ass. No kidding.

Just yesterday I was called Company A to enquire about a technical support centre located within the country. I ended up having to direct the girl on manners. I'm sorry but Singapore has horrible customer service. I believe the term customer service stretches great lengths. Sure you might not be a service centre but you are a receptionist, thus service enquires at your doorstep everyone someone calls. Be polite, answer with courtesy and I assure you, the only people who will go out of their way to make life difficult for you are the people who have it difficult themselves. Don't talk to someone with a tonality as if it isn't your job therefore you want to get off the line. Sorry, what post did you apply for again? Did you say recptionist?

If you are unsure, say you are then don't recommend something you are unsure of. I called back the second time to tell them of the hefty fee I had to pay in case anyone else enquired and the second receptionist, worst than the first one decided to argue back. She even asked for my name which I gladly gave. Definitely I was agitated. I already claimed I wasn't blaming her from the start which I continued to verifiy multiple times throughout the conversation and I was just informing her. Her response "We are not a customer service centre so we cannot help you. If you are going to go on I am going to put this call down." Okay, firstly, I own object A and who am I calling? Company A. Right, that's the company in charge of them, secondly you are just a receptionist. Did if ever cross your mind that I could be a CEO from somewhere else or pehaps your boss calling in to evaluate on your performance or anything else for that matter? When you work in the service line, be it attending to customers, especially answering queries, you have to be polite because all the other person hears is your voice. IF you feel that being a receptionist is beneath you, don't apply for that job because you are going to be there for the sake of the salary and putting effort in for you would be out of the question. Sure, a receptionist isn't the highest paying job but you've forgotten that receptionists play an important role. You are there for a reason so don't forget that. Even just regular staff are important components to a company. There must always be a base to something. Its disappointing that as a Singaporean i get to see the country so well developed in many areas but not ethically.

Just a month ago, I was somewhere else and the service was terrible. They obviously did not attend to us because we were "kids" and looked "poorer than the foreigners". I don't get why people behave this world. There is hiearchy in the world but again they have forgotten that all customers are paying customers. We definitely spent more than the other people but no thank you sufficed, our orders were attended to last and when our orders were taken, the waiter didn't even bother looking at us in the faces.

Personally, people on the ground forget that are responsible for how the people perceive the company. That they are represenations. One bad expereince can change any consumer's mind.

Both of which, I doubt I will ever consume from them again.
Apologies for the wordy post. Have a great week everyone xx.

D